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Uncertainty

May 24, 2022

Getting ready to head into the recording studio for the first song. There will be crying because I can’t seem to get through a session without it. 🤷‍♀️

I’m a little unsure of this one. I used to like it. I know that sounds weird, but here’s how it went down.

I started it January 5. In fact, you can go to this post and see some of the intro notes right there in that binder in the picture I took that night. I don’t remember when I finished it, but I lined up a local girl and she was all raring to fly to Nashville with me, but then her grandma died, so she had to back out.

Then, I arranged to have a Nashville girl sing it and found out last week her plans had changed, so she had to back out as well.

While I was still in Washington, I called Dallas—the producer—in a panic and he found another Nashville girl who said she was interested, but her schedule didn’t line up with ours.

I was starting to get a complex. Maybe these three women just said they liked the song, but they really hated it. Maybe God was trying to tell me to dump the song.

Dallas said he would have someone there today. I’ve never met her. I hope she’s good.

About Marie de Haan

Marie is a gifted pianist, playing since the age of nine. As a teenager, she composed mainly instrumental piano music. She released her powerful debut single, “I Am Broken,” on October 22, 2020, a song whose creation drew heavily upon the trauma she endured as a victim of childhood sexual abuse. Marie held a benefit concert on September 10, 2021, in Skagit County. A portion of the proceeds went to CrossRoads Youth Ranch; this local organization—through equine therapy—empowers “at-risk and sexually exploited youth to heal, grow, and thrive.” She has continued to write music: Christian, folk, and country. Marie loves hiking, gardening, and photography. The Pacific Northwest—where she lives with her husband—is the backdrop for her favorite activities.