About Marie de Haan

Marie is an accomplished writer, songwriter, and speaker.

She has written two memoirs in a series entitled Cancer Is A Funny Thing. The books—in addition to a cancer blog—relate how Marie endured a devastating diagnosis of breast cancer with her characteristic grace and humor.

Marie is a gifted pianist, playing since the age of nine. She is currently a member of her local church’s praise band. She released her powerful debut single, “I Am Broken,” on October 22, 2020, a song whose creation drew heavily upon the trauma she endured as a victim of childhood sexual abuse.

Marie loves hiking, gardening, and photography. The Pacific Northwest—where she lives with her husband Ken—is the backdrop for her favorite activities.

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Marie de Haan sitting alone in a field
Marie de Haan standing near a tree in a field
Marie de Haan standing in a field


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I Am Broken

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Yesterday, I walked around the Belmont University’s campus in the snow.

I used to be envious of people that got to go to college. I didn’t have the money for that.

I don’t have those feelings anymore. I married a great guy, have three amazing children, fulfilled my lifelong dream of writing a book (actually wrote two), and have been privileged to indulge my love of music through a) playing for church, b) giving piano lessons, and c) songwriting which landed me in Nashville. ♥️

Did my first cowrite today. There were three of us in the room and we wrote a song. One hour, people, that’s all it took. It was incredible.

My big fear going in was that I was going to sit there like a bump on a log and not contribute in any way. But I did.

An artist has already put a hold on it. Woot woot!

Finished the final touches on both songs today. Next, the producer will work on the masters. 

Meanwhile, it has been snowing off and on here. Maybe I’ll get stuck here in Nashville.

Yesterday, our 8-hour session turned into a 12-hour session...that’s how much fun we were having.

I’ve got my music and my good-luck socks. What more do I need out of life? 

I was in the recording studio all day today and it was awesome, y’all. 🎵🎶🎵

I cannot believe it's been five years since I went on my cancer blog and posted the words, "I was sexually abused."

Somehow, saying those words publicly, without shame, made the healing begin in earnest.

Now, I'm going to Nashville in four short days to record two more songs about this icky part of my life as a follow-up to the song I recorded just five months ago about the same subject. There has been more healing.

If you have abuse in your past, I urge you to reach out to someone--anyone--and talk about it. You are not alone.

When I first got home from Nashville, I was overwhelmed by my to-do list: copyrights, CCLI, ASCAP, DistroKid, Spotify, YouTube….

Enter Jennie. I hired her to be my publicist to walk me through all these confusing steps. She has worked with Randy Travis in the past and now she is representing little old me. How did this happen?

Jennie emailed me yesterday that a podcast was "greatly moved" by my story. I don’t even know what a podcast is, but I have a feeling I’m going to find out.

"My official music video just came out yesterday."

I never, ever thought I'd say those words in a million years. And yet, here we are.

I must confess, it took me 15 minutes to get the guts up to watch it when the producer first sent it to me. Sorry, Dallas Jack, I never should have doubted you. You took a great actress, Taylor Winnell, and a hack like me—along with a piano in a dark room—and you made something beautiful. ❤
The official "I Am Broken" music video is coming out at 5:30 p.m. PST. It was filmed at Soundcheck Nashville back in September and was fun, exciting, and terrifying all at the same time. This picture was taken in the parking lot after five and a half hours in the studio, and yes, I yelled, "That's a wrap!" 
A bubbly woman at the front desk of the resort called and asked if I wanted to discuss our timeshare points. I was supposed to be putting on makeup, curling my hair, and changing my clothes, all within 20 minutes. I had a music video taping to prepare for, even though I am not an actress. Discuss timeshare points? Hard pass, lady. I had to focus all my energy on conquering my fear and “saddling up anyway.”
Killing time until we had to meet the producer, vocalist, and an actress (to play me...w-what?) for the video shoot at Soundcheck Nashville. We admired the 50,000 plants, took way too many ugly selfies (bad hair and no makeup...me, not the husband), and had the time of our lives. 
Producer, vocalist, pianist/songwriter, and violinist...I'd say we made a pretty good team. And thanks to the husband for a) taking this picture, b) paying for everything, and c) being my biggest fan. When are we going back to Nashville? ❤
#nashville #iambroken
Ali Nicole, your sweet voice added so much to my song and I'm glad that we are now "great friends" as you put it that day in the studio when we took 20 selfies to get that perfect picture. #nashville #greatfriends #iambroken
While I was in Nashville recording my song, "I Am Broken," I got my first fan gift from this cutie-patootie ($20 in my Venmo account) with a sweet note saying, "A special dessert for your special trip."
#HaagenDazs #rockyroad
What a surreal experience to have my song “I Am Broken” recorded in Nashville. I cried twice—overcome with emotion—convinced I would never return to normal life. The producer turned to me halfway through our second day, pointed to his screen, and said, “I am limited to 8 characters as a title for this project: I Am Broke.” Well, normal life it is. 😉#gottapaythebills


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