About Marie de Haan

Marie is a gifted pianist, playing since the age of nine. As a teenager, she composed mainly instrumental piano music.

She released her powerful debut single, “I Am Broken,” on October 22, 2020, a song whose creation drew heavily upon the trauma she endured as a victim of childhood sexual abuse.

Marie held a benefit concert on September 10, 2021, in Skagit County. A portion of the proceeds went to CrossRoads Youth Ranch; this local organization—through equine therapy—empowers “at-risk and sexually exploited youth to heal, grow, and thrive.”

“A Story of Reclamation,” an EP which includes her first six songs, was released on November 19, 2021.

On May 15, 2022, Marie premiered “Rely On Me” at her church and gave a short testimony. This song released on July 8, 2022.

“I Wear Your Crown” came out on September 2, 2022, with “I’ll Carry You” following on November 24, 2022.

Marie loves hiking, gardening, and photography. The Pacific Northwest—where she lives with her husband—is the backdrop for her favorite activities.

Marie de Haan
Marie de Haan sitting alone in a field
Marie de Haan standing near a tree in a field
Marie de Haan standing in a field




Doctor appointments: I loathe them. Always have. Was particularly annoyed during cancer treatment years ago when I went 3-4 days a week to some appointment or another, major ones like heart tests and chemo infusions and discussions about whether to radiate my body.

I have another appointment tomorrow morning.

While I hate seeing the doctor, I also hate...well, what I'm going through now.

I know I mentioned my ER visit on January 14, but what I didn't mention was that three days earlier, approximately eight hours after this picture was taken of me enjoying my customary (free) birthday fries, I had another "episode" of pain that lasted 12 hours.

I've had 4-5 attacks since the ER visit--I'm losing track--that always last 12 hours unless I break down and take Vicodin.

Before a few of you start saying, "Why doesn't the woman just freaking go get her gallbladder out," I've consulted a surgeon and he said he didn't want to take my gallbladder out because a) I do not have any stones, b) he doesn't think it's my gallbladder causing all these issues, and c) he wants to investigate further. That appointment doesn't happen until February 23.

In the meantime, I feel like I'm tiptoeing through life. I'm pretty sure I'm going to end up with an eating disorder by the time this is through as I have no idea what to eat.🤷‍♀️

It's like I turned 56 and my life's gone down the crapper. 😂

But just when I feel like giving in and being a real "whiny pee-pants" as my husband's friend likes to say😉, I remind myself that I could have died almost 14 years ago, and I didn't. I got through that and I'll get through this, because, well, God always has a plan for everything. 

A few months ago, an article on Facebook asked, "Why Is the Church Going Dark?" The main gist was about how santuaries have become dimly lit with no windows.

One woman commented, "The people in front want attention."

Another woman replied, "Performers on a stage. Lifting themselves up instead of Jesus...."

I can't speak for other musicians in worship ministry. I know I'm not up there for attention, even though I get it. For example, I had the sweetest woman come up to me around Christmastime after one of the church services and ask why I wasn't smiling while I played. I thought she was teasing me, because of what I wrote here: 

I don't know why my exuberance inside doesn't translate to my face.😂
While I'm not a performer, I do know how to play the piano. That talent came from God, and He tells me to use it.

One thing's for sure: while people argue about church lighting🤦‍♀️, I'm going to continue to get my butt up on that stage and do my best--playing piano and singing backup--with the rest of the band.

Together, with our various gifts, we're going to point people toward Jesus.

My friend who introduced me to this recipe several years ago brought me some to her daughter's piano lesson on January 11. I should have given it back. Or, I guess had some self-control. 😟

The night before my trip to the ER, I joked to my husband, "Hm, I should probably stop eating this stuff. It's most likely gluing my insides together."

When the ER nurse asked me what I had eaten prior to my visit, I fessed up, "Well...uh...I think I ate a few too many candies." Seriously, I end up in the ER with a nougat hangover?

I don't drink, I don't smoke, and I try to stay away from sugar and succeed most days, until I don't.

One thing is for sure: I think my partying days are over. No more month-long birthday celebrating at restaurants/candy-bingeing for me.

What I wanted to do Saturday: go hiking with the husband for my birthday

What I did instead: spent 7 hours in the ER--flip-flopping on the bed trying to get comfortable--staring at the light fixture on the ceiling 😳

Midnight (New York time): official release of "Open Road"

4:00 a.m. - Got a lot done on one of my compositions
9:00 a.m. - Started a brand-new delightful piano student

1:30 p.m. - More piano students

5:30 p.m. - Red Robin for french fries, I mean, a burger 😉

7:00 p.m. - Fred Meyer for Häagen-Dazs rocky road ice cream

Interspersed throughout the day, there were phone calls, texts, FB posts, and private messages. Y'all are too kind. 😍

All in all, a great start to the birthday month. 😂

"Never give up. And most importantly, be true to yourself. Write from your heart, in your own voice, and about what you believe in." Wise words from Louise Brown, whoever she is.

But why, oh why, does this writing have to take place in the middle of the night? I worked on one of my compositions in that binder from 4:00 a.m. to 5:30 a.m. And this was after being awake all night long.😳

Thankfully, I managed to stay awake during all my piano lessons today. That's always a plus.😉 

My first country song is now available. Yeehaw!

I took 12 measures I wrote back in 2015, added words and some more measures, had @jennielistofficial help me rework the chorus lyrics, and followed her suggestion to change verse 4 into a bridge. I flew to Nashville back in May and she made the song come to life with her amazing voice. @dallas_jack at @recordonenashville then worked his magic.

Me? I got to play some wild piano in the recording studio that day and had a permanent smile plastered on my face.
Enjoy, y'all.
Handel probably wrote "Messiah" in 24 days because he didn't spend the Christmas season eating too many sweets or New Year's Day in his pajamas playing Ticket to Ride and Five Crowns. 😂
A year ago today, I was doing a little songwriting into the wee hours of the morning.

Back then, I had the beginnings to four songs in that binder: one in the key of D major, one in A, one in C, and my first attempt at 6/8 time. 😳

In 2021, in the first week of January, I wrote "Turmoil" and "Weep" which have since been released and made into lyric videos.

While I realize I can compose any month of the year, January seems to be the most productive for me for some reason, so for the past three days, I have been working (yes, all hours of the night) in this binder again, organizing my music.
The "songs"--some of them are 4 measures long so far and some are 8 pages--are starting to pile up. I believe there are 12 of them.
Since we're already three days into the month, I guess I better get my bahookie in gear and start finishing them. 😂

This memory (from six years ago) popped up in my FB feed today, with these words: "Handel wrote the Messiah in 24 days. It takes me about six years to write one song. Guess I better speed things up or I might only have two or three songs left in me."

I said that back in 2017, referring to the instrumental piano music I would take forever to create, never in a million years imagining what turn my life would take.

I am certainly not saying I'm on the same par as Handel😂, but if you had told me I would start writing songs with (vulnerable) words, play them publicly in church services, jet off to Nashville to record them, and "act" in a music video😳, I would not have believed you.

It just goes to show that when God has a plan for you, well, things happen.

Christmas is a happy occasion for some and difficult for others. For me, at the end of the day, I celebrate the fact that I have a God who loves me.
I don't know where you land between the two, but enjoy my new lyric video (which just went live today) produced by @pheasant_productions_nashville.

[I don't know how to do video links, so you'll have to check out my YouTube channel. 😂]

“The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make His face shine upon you, and be gracious to you; the Lord lift up His countenance upon you, and give you peace.” Numbers 6:24-26

After praise-team practice a few weeks ago, a few of the bandmates and I were standing out in the parking lot.
"Rolly and Dan," I said to the drummer and bass player as Ken (the sound guy and husband😉) looked on, "I have a song coming out tonight. Make sure you listen to it a thousand times so that I can recoup .0006 cents."
Rolly immediately reached into his pocket and handed me a penny.

Back in the car, on the way home, Ken says to me, "You need to frame that penny."

I've had several people remark to me over these past crazy couple years, "You must really be raking in the money." Others want to know how I can "make it big."

It's never been about the money for me (which is probably a good thing, because I haven't made any ha ha). I write music because it's my passion.

Would I love it if Dolly Parton contacted me tomorrow and said, "Hey, girl, I really like your song 'Gonna Live My Life' and want to record it"? Duh. I would squeal and faint all at the same time.😂

If Keith Urban wanted to record "I'll Carry You," I'd let him. 😉

In the meantime, I'm going to frame my little penny from Rolly because I love him and he loves me and his encouragement means the world to me. ❤️

Had Thanksgiving celebration #3 tonight with turkey, mashed potatoes, stuffing — the whole nine yards. Boy-howdy, we had so much fun, we forgot to take a picture. 😏

Yes, you read that right: three Thanksgivings…that’s just how thankful we are in this family. 😂

As you know, I am always embarrassing myself in some way.

I have a song coming out in January and I'm still debating which intro I want to go with. This afternoon, I loaded the two masters onto the iPhone, sat in between my two speakers--surround sound, duh😂--and cranked the first one.

The next thing I know, I'm thinking, "Man, this song sure is catchy." I start singing along at the top of my lungs. If you think I'm kidding, you can ask my husband whose office is right next to mine. 😉

Midway through the bridge--yes, still singing at full throttle--I realized that my next piano student has a habit of coming early. I jumped up, glanced out my window, and sure enough, there she was, walking up the sidewalk with her mother to the front door.

Phew. For once, I didn't make an idiot of myself. But, I did have a great time, and that's the important thing, right?😁

I am thankful today that I am perfectly content to stay up late (playing games and watching TV while the fire crackles in the background) and don't feel this need to go out shopping at two in the morning risking possible death to buy some useless crap because I already have everything I need.



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