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Let Go & Let God

May 24, 2022

Katrien, me, Dallas

I don’t know what I was so worried about. (I talked about my hesitation about recording this song in my last post.)

My computer guy has a saying, “Let go and let God.” He has reminded me of it more than once.

I spent nine hours in the recording studio today and it was pure heaven. Well, that isn’t totally true.

First, there was the moment that Dallas asked me to play the keyboard part so he could record it, and I realized that while I had played the song a hundred times, I usually played the melody line and I had not written down the piano accompaniment. I had a complete moment of panic.

Then, there was the moment when the singer came flying in, plopped down, and said, “Where’s the singer?”

I said, “What do you mean? You’re the singer.” I looked at Dallas in confusion.

She said, “I thought I was doing harmonies.”

I couldn’t even be mad. There may or may not have been a little bit of laughing on my part—not laughing ha ha, but a bit of hysteria thrown in because why would I be surprised? This song had been a disaster, so to speak, from the beginning—and I figured this song was never going to happen.

After teaching the melody to Katrien, she started singing—man, what a powerhouse—and I was a blubbering mess. Now I knew why three women had turned it down. It was as if God had wanted me to have a little more faith that He was going to send me the perfect person for this song.

About Marie de Haan

Marie is a gifted pianist, playing since the age of nine. As a teenager, she composed mainly instrumental piano music. She released her powerful debut single, “I Am Broken,” on October 22, 2020, a song whose creation drew heavily upon the trauma she endured as a victim of childhood sexual abuse. Marie held a benefit concert on September 10, 2021, in Skagit County. A portion of the proceeds went to CrossRoads Youth Ranch; this local organization—through equine therapy—empowers “at-risk and sexually exploited youth to heal, grow, and thrive.” She has continued to write music: Christian, folk, and country. Marie loves hiking, gardening, and photography. The Pacific Northwest—where she lives with her husband—is the backdrop for her favorite activities.