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Sleeping In My Own Bed

March 30, 2023

This is me sleeping in my own bed at home. Of course, I’m sure pain medication has a little something to do with it as well.

Several of you have asked if I actually got my gallbladder out. Yes, yes, I did.

After much deliberation—so much deliberation—I finally decided that the attack I had on Thursday early morning (the day before I entered the hospital) was pretty much the final straw. It was not a pretty sight, people.

The pain and nausea would not go away this time and the spike in bilirubin (and threat to the liver) and beginning damage to the pancreas made the decision a bit easier.

Will I miss my previous good digestive system? Darn tootin’ I will.

Will I miss the attacks I’ve had since January 9? Absolutely not.

So I will have to watch my diet even closer than I already do. I’ve done it before…I will do it again.

One thing’s for sure. I’m looking forward to getting back to teaching. My students are texting me, bringing me flowers and sweet little cards, and sending me videos of them playing their keyboards. I miss them.

I can hardly wait to record my two songs that are waiting for me.

There’s also the song that was supposed to come out last Friday, but…hospital.

About Marie de Haan

Marie is a gifted pianist, playing since the age of nine. As a teenager, she composed mainly instrumental piano music. She released her powerful debut single, “I Am Broken,” on October 22, 2020, a song whose creation drew heavily upon the trauma she endured as a victim of childhood sexual abuse. Marie held a benefit concert on September 10, 2021, in Skagit County. A portion of the proceeds went to CrossRoads Youth Ranch; this local organization—through equine therapy—empowers “at-risk and sexually exploited youth to heal, grow, and thrive.” She has continued to write music: Christian, folk, and country. Marie loves hiking, gardening, and photography. The Pacific Northwest—where she lives with her husband—is the backdrop for her favorite activities.