Make Plans and God Laughs

What started this whole Nashville business, you say?

On April 27, 2019 at the local Tulip Festival Concert, we premiered a song I had written in 2018. I did not want to get up on that stage, but I made myself do it. Afterward, a few young girls that I was on praise team with came running up to me gushing, “You need to record that song. It was amazing.”

I said, “Whoa, Nelly.”😉I was still getting over the fact that I had gotten my butt up there. Now these young whippersnappers had me off and running to the big leagues.

I could not get over the fact of how many people in the audience in front of me and the choir behind me were crying. To be honest, it was a bit overwhelming. For weeks, people told me how the song had affected them.

A friend of mine had taken a rough recording of the premiere and I listened to it over and over. I thought, “Hey, I should try to make a professional recording of that, just for myself.” Make plans and God laughs, right?

Back in 2016, writing this post was the beginning of my healing from a major hardship in my life. Further healing happened when I poured my guts out on paper, added some notes, and wrote this song; I think it was the first time I allowed myself to “yell” at God and tell Him how angry I was because of all the trauma I’d been through.

I no longer contemplate suicide.

I no longer hate the people involved: the offender, the church leaders, or myself.

I am happy.

“With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26